Money has overshadowed my family. Money given yesterday is forgotten about today. There is never an effort by anyone to also help bring money in. And so we are in a situation where a family of adult men and women finds itself without a single person with a job. Only that it is my job to take care of everyone.
If you know me, you know how much I love my family, especially my nieces and nephews. It was always standard and relied on in my family that I would plan and provide for my nieces and nephews' birthdays; that I would provide them with new clothes with every change of the season. I have always spoiled them, loved them, given them.
I wonder, when is it okay for me to take care of myself? When do I get to enjoy the things I work for, the things I have earned? I am not married, I do not have children, I only have myself and only myself to provide for my needs. When will everyone feel they have gotten enough from Marlo? When do I stop having the guilt? When will they remember how much I have always done?
I miss my nieces and nephews, I feel sad that they sometimes get caught in the middle. Family is where you should be able to find comfort - I will wait to find mine...Until then, God, my friends and of course fashion will do...